Taylor Swift: I Don’t Want to End Up Being “Awful” and “Alone” (VIDEO)
Taylor Swift opens up about some of her biggest fears in the new issue of InStyle UK, revealing she’s concerned about ending up “alone.”
“What I worry about is that I never want to end up kind of a self-centred, vain human being. My fears circle around me making the wrong choices and messing this up for myself,” admits the singer in the mag’s April issue.
“I don’t wanna end up being awful and intolerable. Alone. Laying in a marble bathtub by myself, like sad, with a glass of wine just complaining that my life ended up alone,” she explains, “because I pushed everyone away because I thought I was too good to hang out with anybody.”
Swift continues, “The typical Hollywood sad cliche of the poor lonely starlet with no one because she put up all these walls and didn’t trust anyone. That’s my fear.” “And that’s why I live my life the way I live my life because I’d so much rather feel everything than end up like that,” explains the singer, who also discusses writing songs about her much talked-about love life.
Swift reveals she’s lacking in the male friendship department, saying she has just “two or three” guy friends. “I’m a girls’ girl. I have guy friends but the problem with having guy friends is, like, I always get linked to them and they’ll end up in a slideshow of people I’ve apparently dated on the internet,” says the songstress.
Still, Swift says that — for now — she’s content to see how things work themselves out, noting, “I don’t even have a master plan.” “I’ve thought that I did have a dream scenario before but it turns out that I change my mind and that essentially in your 20s all the puzzle pieces of your life are thrown up in the air and they just fall into whatever place and I think that’s healthy,” she says. Swift’s full interview will hit newsstands on Thursday.