Nicole Scherzinger on Her Bulimia Battle: “I Wasted My Life”
Nicole Scherzinger opens about up her battle with bulimia for the cover of Cosmpolitan UK’s August issue. “Thinking about it I try not to well up… It is such a horrible paralyzing disease and it was such a dark time for me,” she says. “That’s why I can empathize so much with people who have demons and voices in their heads, who aren’t nice to themselves. It robs you of living your life.”
Scherzinger adds, “But you can recover and you can get rid of it forever. I did it and that’s why it’s so important for me to share my story.” “I felt so alone… but I made myself so alone,” explains the star. “You hide it from the world, you isolate yourself. But you can beat it – do not give up because you’re so special and you’re meant for such great things.”
The singer reveals that at the worst of her struggle, “I had started losing my voice, I couldn’t sing at shows, and then I remember my manager finding me passed out on the floor in Malta or in the south of France. I thought, ‘I’m going to lose everything I love if I don’t love myself.'” Scherzinger continues, “One day when you feel like you’ve reached the end, you just say, ‘I’m not doing this anymore.'”
“It’s sad to see how I wasted my life. I had such a great life on the outside, the Dolls were on top of the world but I was miserable on the inside,” recalls the performer. “I’m never letting that happen again; you only get one life – I was 27 only once.”
Scherzinger also discusses her on-and-off relationship with boyfriend Lewis Hamilton, which suffers because she lives in L.A. and he lives in Europe. “Well it’s something crazy romantic. Relationships are hard and having to hold a long-distance relationship is even harder,” says Scherzinger. “It’s kudos to us for growing and trying – there’s so much love there. It’s just the distance, it’s not natural for anyone. But I’m good and I’m happy.” Still, she insists that she would never give up her dreams for Hamilton, explaining, “Absolutely not. This is my passion, I have so much more to give, and with him – whether we’re on or off – I wholeheartedly support him in everything he does. It’s good we have that love and respect for each other.”
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