Megan Fox on Motherhood: “I Feel A Lot of Guilt,” My Heart Is Not In My Work
Megan Fox opens up about motherhood in an interview with Parents.
Fox, who has one-year-old Noah and four-month-old Bodhi with husband Brian Austin Green, calls motherhood “total chaos.”
She adds, “Before you have kids you really do not understand how much work it is and how consuming it is. And then you have one and you’re like, ‘Oh my God my baby is my whole world.'”
Fox also faces the particular demands of raising two children under the age of two.
“Every moment of the day is dedicated to this one baby and then all of a sudden you have two babies! Their needs are so different because Noah is nearing 2 and then my newborn is 4 months. It’s really hard to manage because I also don’t let them watch TV. It’s not like I’m going to sit Noah in front of the television so I can take care of Bodhi. I have to figure out how to incorporate Noah into the process and have him help me take care of Bodhi and make sure he doesn’t get jealous and make sure nobody’s neglected and everybody’s needs are being met,” she shares.
For Fox, “it’s hard because I don’t feel like I’m ever giving either one of them 100% of my attention or 100% of myself, so I carry a lot of guilt. Do they each understand how special they are and how much I love them?”
Indeed, the “most difficult part” for Fox is that “it’s hard to make each one feel like an individual when you have to raise them together and manage them together all of the time.”
Fox also struggles to balance motherhood with her career.
“I’ve never been an extraordinarily ambitious girl or career-oriented, but especially once I got pregnant with my first son and now [having] my second, it’s so hard to be a working mom especially when your heart is not in your work, when your heart is with your family,” she says.
Still, Fox notes, “I have to make one movie a year because I have to invest in their future and I have to be able to pay their way through college and be able to provide for them.”
Ultimately, she says, “It’s all about trying to spend as little time away from my kids as possible.”
Most of all, Fox is “excited for the future, to see them be brothers and be best friends and I know that there’s gonna be lots of fighting, but there’s also gonna be lots of hugs and kisses.”
“It’s sort of mind-blowing to think about how amazing the future is going to be with them, holidays and birthdays,” Fox adds.