Mariah Carey Opens Up About Her “Ditzy” Image, Being Biracial and More in Out
Mariah Carey says she’s not a ditz, references Nietzsche, and reveals her love of her reading in an interview with Out, in which she also talks about being biracial and becoming a mom.
When talking about her obsession with Marilyn Monroe — a fellow blonde icon written off as ditzy — Carey recalls getting Norman Mailer’s biography of the screen star when she was 10 years old.
“I was a reader as a child, believe it or not,” she tells the magazine. “It doesn’t go with the ditzy image, I guess. I have too many highlights!”
Carey insists it doesn’t bother her that people view her in such a way, saying, “I flirt with it, and I play with it. If it pisses people off, whatever.”
She points out, “Marilyn was reading Nietzsche on the set of Something’s Got to Give.”
“Marilyn Monroe Productions was the first female-owned production company in Hollywood. She paved the way for women in Hollywood, and every single woman owes something to her for that, whether they agree with her image or not,” says the singer.
Carey reflects further on her childhood, in which she grew up as a biracial teen on Long Island, a fact that many people seem to fixate on.
“Being biracial is so much a part of who I am that it’s almost, ‘let it go already,’” she tells Out. “But it’s intrinsic to me, but I think a lot of my fans relate to me because they felt different.”
Carey, who calls herself “eternally 12 years old,” has been criticized lately for seemingly rejecting aging, but she clarifies, “I don’t count years, but I definitely rebuke them.”
“I have anniversaries, not birthdays, because I celebrate life, darling,” she explains, before quickly adding to the interviewer, “Please put an LOL next to this, because people are going to be, like, WTF?”
Carey, however, is being serious about celebrating life, and shares with the magazine a “pact” she made as a kid.
She recalls, “There had been some sort of argument with my mom and the man she was dating at the time, and somehow I became a part of it — I was around 8 or 9 years old.”
And I said, ‘I’m never going to forget how it feels to be a kid, and you can’t be seen or heard.’ It’s as though your opinion doesn’t mean anything, or your feelings are not real,” she laments.
That determination to remain true to herself, have a voice, and make an impact is one that’s come up lately with her album, Me. I Am Mariah… The Elusive Chanteuse.”
With the new record, Carey says, she wants the music as a whole “to be heard and felt [as] an experience, and not “just be, like, ‘Here’s another iTunes moment,’ and this and that.”
Carey tells the mag, “[In the past] I allowed people to — how do I say it? — dictate policy to me, meaning if I didn’t like something they didn’t care. I listened to people — I was, like, ‘Fine, cool, do whatever.’ So now I’m just being adamant.”
Perhaps it’s a trait she’ll pass on to her kids, 3-year-old twins Moroccan and Monroe.
“I never, ever thought I was going to have kids — ever,” she confesses. “I remember as a child saying I’m never going to get married; I’m never going to have kids.”
In a continuing theme in the interview, Carey connects the experience to her youth, pointing out, “Here’s the thing: would I have been better off if my parents stayed married? No way. They were miserable together, but the grass is always greener.”
“I feel I had a great childhood in some ways — and that’s an amazing thing to be able to say — but I also feel I didn’t because I was the caretaker and I still am, like it started long before I had any financing,” she explains.
Still, there’s nothing in life like being a parent, and Carey’s quick to point that out.
“It’s unconditional love,” she says.