Lana Del Rey: “I Wish I Was Dead Already”
Lana Del Rey says she wishes she were dead in a new interview with The Guardian.
Discussing the premature deaths of music idols like Kurt Cobain and Amy Winehouse, Del Rey proclaims, “I wish I was dead already.”
When challenged on the point, she insists, “I do. I don’t want to have to keep doing this. But I am.”
Does she mean she doesn’t want to keep making music?
“Everything. That’s just how I feel. If it wasn’t that way, then I wouldn’t say it. I would be scared if I knew [death] was coming,” explains the star.
Indeed, Del Rey dislikes the entire pop star lifestyle.
“Family members will come on the road with me and say: ‘Wow, your life is just like a movie!'” she says, before adding, “I’m like: ‘Yeah, a really f*cked-up movie.'”
Even in the beginning, with the breakout success of her song “Video Games,” Del Rey “never felt any of the enjoyment. It was all bad, all of it.”
Del Rey, who has made waves by calling feminism boring, does not believe that the media’s treatment of her has anything to do with her gender.
“I think they think there’s an element of sexism going on, but I feel that it’s more personal. I don’t see where the female part comes into it. I just can’t catch that feminist angle,” she explains.
When asked about the criticism that women like Miley Cyrus, Lorde, Lily Allen, Lady Gaga and Sinead O’Connor receive, Del Rey suggests “maybe those people are true provocateurs.”
“But I’m really not and never have been. I don’t think there’s any shock value in my stuff – well, maybe the odd disconcerting lyric – but I think other people probably deserve the criticism, because they’re eliciting it,” explains the singer.
Asked about her video for “Ride,” which features Del Rey hooking up with a series of men from biker gangs, she admits, “I can see how that video would raise a feminist eyebrow.”
“But that was more personal to me – it was about my feelings on free love and what the effect of meeting strangers can bring into your life: how it can make you unhinged in the right way and free you from the social obligations I hope we’re growing out of in 2014,” says Del Rey.
As for what she actually wants from her music, Del Rey expresses a desire for “something quiet and simple: a writer’s community and respect.”
What do you think about Del Rey’s latest comments?