Kylie Jenner: “I’m An Easy Target,” But I “Can’t Always Be Good Role Model”
Kylie Jenner is the cover star for the milestone 20th issue of Fault, and gives the magazine one of her most candid interviews to date. The teen opens up about making mistakes in the spotlight, not needing a “significant other,” and why she considers herself more spiritualistic than materialistic.
“There’s definitely a spiritual side to me and I honestly want the best for everyone,” says Jenner. “I’m not materialistic. I love clothes and all that stuff, but I don’t need it to live. I feel like, not that I’ve had everything, but once you feel you’ve had everything at a young age, you can either go down a path of being spoiled and self-centered, or you see it isn’t everything.”
She continues, “I’ve found ways to really enjoy life. But people may get the wrong idea. Having a reality TV show, everyone feels like they know you, but that’s only 10 percent of my life. There’s a whole other side of me that people don’t see.” Jenner says the misconceptions can be hard to take, and it’s caused her to change some of her behavior. She explains, “People are going to judge you no matter what you do. So now I feel like I haven’t been open as much as I used to be. I haven’t really been letting my fans get to know me a lot; I closed down a little. I love to connect with people, but it became just a bigger door for people to judge me.”
“I feel like, growing up, I haven’t had a lot of room for error — I don’t have room to make mistakes,” argues Jenner. “You need to make mistakes to grow and learn, but I’m just a little different because the whole world is watching me, every single thing I do. So I closed my door a little, just until I get a bit older and then I’ll probably get back into it. On Instagram I’m like a different person almost; I just show people what I want people see.”
That said, Jenner confesses, “I never feel pressure to be a good role model. I always try to do my best to inspire people to be good and do the right thing, but I just can’t live my life always trying to be a good role model. I try to be the best I can be, but it’s hard sometimes. We’re all human. I just like to live each day and just be me and be real.” She adds, “I definitely always feel pressure to act a certain way, but I try my best not to let it affect me — although there are times where I’m not totally myself because of that. Even at the mall I feel like I can’t totally be myself. When I’m not in public, I try to always be with my friends, so I can totally be myself and not have to worry about people judging or watching.”
Jenner also acknowledges, “Being in my family, under scrutiny all the time… it affects the other people around me,” and admits, “My friends can get freaked out when they come into my world. It’s sad when you think about it.” She further tells Fault, “There have been so many people that come into my family’s life that can’t handle it. And we handle a lot. The more people love you, the more there’s going to be people who hate you. So I just feel like the girl who is an easy target to talk about.”
“It’s definitely been crazy,” says the 17-year-old, “but I feel like we all have trust that we’re in it together and we try to focus on the positive.” Jenner adds, “I have to feel like I’m OK with everyone I love in my life. I never want to have bad beef with anybody. I always want everyone to be happy.” The reality star also says that “balancing work life and personal life” is a key priority, “so I never lose myself.”
And, while believed to be dating Tyga, she tells Fault, “I don’t think I need a significant other to be happy because I always like to find that for myself, but I think that it makes me a lot happier when I’m sharing my life with somebody.” The full interview hits newsstands on March 20. What do you think of Jenner’s comments?