Kristen Stewart: “I Stand By Every Mistake I’ve Ever Made”
By Michael Lewittes | 10:21 am, February 10th, 2014PHOTO
Kristen Stewart opens up in the March issue of Marie Claire about falling in love, her awkwardness and being scrutinized by the media. The actress tells the magazine that she accepts full responsibility for mistakes she’s made, but that she doesn’t regret a thing. Stewart states, “I stand by every mistake I’ve ever made, so judge away.”
Asked about falling in love, the star shares, “You don’t know who you will fall in love with. You just don’t. You don’t control it.” She offers, “If you fall in love with someone, you want to own them – but really, why would you want that? You want them to be what you love. I’m much too young to even have an answer for that question.”
Stewart goes on to talk about whether she’ll have children one day, saying, “I had it too good to not have that, too. If I were to put money on it, definitely, yeah. But you earn that, like, that’s so not here yet. I mean, at this point, I can’t tell you if I want to hang out on Saturday.”
As for being called “awkward” for how she sometimes conducts herself television interviews, the actress reveals, “I have an embarrassing inability, seriously, of summoning fake energy… I’m just not very good on TV, and it’s not my main goal in life to get good at it.” She continues, “People are like, ‘She just can’t handle’ – for lack of a better word – ‘the spotlight’. No, actually, I can’t, and that is totally who I am.” “I love being an actor, but I’m the last person to want to have a birthday party,” notes the star, adding, “I don’t try to force it or turn it into something else or fabricate this personality… so I totally agree when people say I’m, like, the most awkward person.”
Stewart further tells the magazine that she almost quit acting at age nine, recalling, “I auditioned for a year before I got anything, and I told my mom I was kind of over it. I was like, ‘I don’t want to make you drive around L.A. anymore. If it’s not happening, it’s not worth it.’ They thought I looked like a boy. I didn’t think it was going to pan out, and then literally that day, I got The Safety of Objects, which was my first movie.”
The Twilight star also shares that like some of her child star peers, she won’t go down a path of drug use and partying because she’s too much of a “control freak.” She says, “I’m glad I grew up in this era because I think if I grew up in my parents’ age of drugs and discovery and crazy sh*t, I don’t think I would do drugs well.” The magazine hits newsstands on February 11.
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