Chris Brown: What Jail Was Like For Me
“When we’re not relevant anymore, that might be the case,” he tells the outlet. “As long as you’re doing something good, people will always bring up old stuff or negative stuff because they don’t want you to surpass a certain level or elevate. But as long as you have your head on straight, it shouldn’t matter what people want to say.”
Did he write while in jail earlier this year?
Brown explains, “Jail isn’t a place of many creative spirits. But as far as my creativity, I put it on hold until I got out. Jail is more of a regimen and a structure. I’m more of a free spirit when it comes to creating music, painting and art.”
“So when I got out, I was very excited to get into the studio,” he continues. “I didn’t have any ideas or concepts; they usually come as I go [in to record]. I was drawing and sketching most of the time, biding time.”
What was it like to be behind bars?
The star says, “A guard wakes you up; you eat. You stay in your cell most of the time, basically 24 hours a day. Maybe on Mondays you go to the roof inside of a cage and have a phone call. It’s isolation. You have time to focus on what matters, on what to do and what not to do.”
Did he learn from the experience?
“My maturity level has risen as far as my realizing what’s important,” reveals Brown. “Realizing that I’m human like everyone else. At the end of the day, it’s just a humbling experience. You’re more appreciative of everything else that’s on the outside. A burger tastes 1,000 times better when you’re out.”
Brown is asked to explain his loyal fan base.
“First, I’d say God. Honestly. My faith in knowing what my purpose is and how I’m trying to find out what my purpose is,” he tells Billboard. “My fan base speaks volumes [to that]. I never want to say that I know everything or I know what the best song or a hit is. I just put it out there for people to like and love.”
He adds, “It’s God and just consistency with my talent. Being able to persevere if I get knocked down and always get back up.”
How does he deal with being under the microscope?
Brown admits, “Not everyone in the world is going to particularly love me. But I’m cool with that. As long as I love myself and my music, I’m fine. People are going to say what they want to say. I don’t look over my shoulder or wish I could turn back the hands of time. Life is a learning experience, so I’m learning as I go. I’m not walking around angry about anything. So you just have to let it be.”
“I realize that what I do for a living opens my life to public scrutiny and that I have a responsibility to everyone because of that exposure,” says Brown. “I can say that I am only human and I have made mistakes. I can say that I try to live my life in the most true, honest way that I can.”
The hit maker tells the outlet, “I am not perfect, no one is. No one is harder on me than me. No one can please everyone. No one can live in the past and expect to grow. I have been moving forward and hope that I am not defined by just a few moments in my life but all of the moments that will make up my life.”
Is he a role model?
“As far as becoming a man in the public eye, continuing to persevere and stay positive throughout trials and tribulations… that’s the only thing I’d say contributes to my being a role model,” says Brown. “If kids look up to me, that’s amazing; great. As far as me as an artist and a person, I always want to exude positivity. But as far as saying, ‘Hey, I’m a role model, I’m the best of this,’ I take the humble approach and let people make that decision for themselves.”
How’s Brown doing these days?
The singer-dancer reveals, “I just feel positive about life in general. Whatever happens will happen, and God has me. I’m going to keep my faith and be focused on my family, friends, fans and music. And from there just be the best Chris Brown I can be.”
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